I just don’t have an opinion on you, if you understand. Basically you’re just another person I see and hear about now a days. You were someone I once knew, quite well actually. We once had a past together but that’s all over with. We’ve both moved on for the better. We’re just two strangers with a past. Even if we ended on bad terms, I don’t hate you but at the same time I don’t care for you, you’re just there.
Yeeeee….I’m like too lazy to scroll everything I missed for the past week LOL!
So the trip wasn’t the best thing ever, but it wasn’t really bad either. I got a lot of mosquito bites though ;-; Sad thing was that I DIDN’T GET TO DO ANY OF THE SHOPPING I WANTED TO DO. IT WAS SO UPSETTING. ALL THE PARENTS WANTED TO DO WAS CATCH CLAMS AND STUFF OR DRIVE AROUND ENDLESSLY!
But it wasn’t too bad since I had other kids to talk to…well they were all older than me though. They were all in university LOL! Except one girl. I met this girl who was friends with mochiizilla and I decided that the world suddenly got too small LOL!
But yeee, wasn’t too bad, wasn’t the best trip ever.
I think it’s somewhat of a bittersweet type of thing. The ups are that it shows that that person really wants to talk to you and that they really care. But then the downs are that you really want to tell them to shut the fuck up because they’re getting annoying. LOL.
I guess I’m just so caught up in my emotions at the moment. I say things I don’t mean and most the time they end up hurting people. But when I’m not mad anymore and I look back, I realize I regret saying it. But it doesn’t matter if I regret it or not, I already said it and what’s done is done.
Everything was fine before I realized that I liked you. I could go to school, feeling like nothing and not really looking forward to anything particular. I could watch romantic films without feeling something weird when it ended. I could go to sleep knowing that nothing in particular would invade my dreams. I could wake up, not remembering my dreams I had that night…nor would I care. I woke up feeling like everything was normal.
But now…it’s different. Every time I went to school…I wanted to see your face…hear your voice when it talked to me. I can’t watch a romantic film and not feel like I’m missing something and wanting you with me to see if you’re the missing puzzle piece. Every time I sleep…I fear if you will or will not plague my dreams…smudging the line between reality and fantasy. When I wake up…I feel like you’re torturing me with dreams I know it’s not a reality when my eyes are open.
I think I’ve finally lost it and I’m not sure what to do.
Have a good one and I hope your wishes come true :’D
It’s probably already your birthday in Vietnam, but yeah, wanna wish you a good one and for you to have a lot of fun there…but also come back really soon. I’m missing you so damn much. Summer isn’t that great without my bestfriend ): There’s just so much going on right now and I wish you were here so I could tell you about it, whine about it, cry about it, and then laugh about it. Because that’s what you always manage to do: Make me laugh like no one else can :) It’s one of your perks as my bestfriend ;) Without you here to lend an ear/shoulder, I’m such a mess! LOLOL It’s quite saddening. I’m not really sure what to do right now so I wish you were here so it wouldn’t be so bad. LOL I MAKE IT SOUND LIKE YOU DIED OR SOMETHING. But I hope you’re having fun over there, wish I could be over there too ^ ^! Come back soon :)
Miss two days of tumblr and I felt like I missed everything
Camping overall actually wasn’t that bad. I went to banff and oh lord, the air is so damn fresh! THERE WAS NO POLLEN THERE! I really liked it actually. Since I have an allergy to pollen, it was so nice to get away from the sneezing and the eye-itching feeling. LOL I pretty much slept more than half the trip away though. This is basically what happened: Slept at 3:30am and woke up at 7am and left at 7:15am. Went to this far ass mcdonalds where it was SO DAMN BUSY. It was like all the asians decided to go camping/outing that day LOL! Saw people from my school at that McDonalds, a little awkward for me because I’m an awkward duck, then met up with the other people who were going camping with me and we all lef tto go to banff. I slept during the car ride…and didn’t get up until 4pm and we got there at 10am! LOL They went hiking without me apparently and just left me in the car. Ok, thanks guys. I could’ve died, you know. After I woke up, all the adults started cooking bbq and I ate and then guess what? WENT BACK TO SLEEP LOL! It was 6pm by then and I woke up at 9pm LOL I showered there (they had a very very clean washroom lulz) and then it was 10:30pm by then. I stayed outside with everyone for another two hours went to brush my teeth. There was a horde of koreans in the washroom at that time and they were all staring at me because my music was on full blast when I went in LOL (I listen to kpop) After that I went back out and went back to my tent to sleep LOLOL! I woke up around 8am and was so damn awake LOL Pree much ate and then left to go look at 23098738 lakes and then went to this park and they cooked bbq again and then this cutie came by and ate with us LOL! Damn, he was cute ;) LOL Which is oddly weird because I met him in my childhood and haven’t seen him since like, forever. He was cute back then too LOL ;) LOL I played Big 2 with the other kids there and him and fuck, I suck at cards LOL! If he and this lady who went camping with me didn’t help me, I wouldn’t lost 28937983 times xD Anyways, after that, everyone went to look at another 19383475 lakes and we went back to cowtown and went to go eat chinese food LOL! Wasn’t that bad actually :)