You know, one day, you’re going to realize how much better she is better off without you. That she was the girl who understood you, patiently and quietly put up with your shit. When she’s gone, you’ll start to remember memories that you can’t erase no matter how hard you try. You’ll realize that this was your mistake but you’ve both changed and you can’t get back to the love you guys had. She honestly deserves so much more, doesn’t it affect you in any way that you’ve done her wrong? Every time you look back, do you remember what you had to go through to be with her? Every happy moment and then remember how you let it go so easily? Do you remember how she put all her trust in you? Now she’s still putting up with your shit and silently being affected in ways you wouldn’t understand. When you finally realize that she can’t be replaced, that she was the girl who loved you the way you wanted to loved, and understood you when no one else did, it’ll be way too late. She’ll be gone, she’s moved on. When that moment comes, you’ll have to be the one who watches her walk away with a man who treated her the way she deserved to be treated, she’ll be with someone who understood her worth.
When I look back… I want my blog to my diary. I want to write so much on this so that when I grow up and look back at it, I can remember everything and every post had a meaning. I don’t wanna look back at my tumblr and see a bunch of chainletters and useless posts that I won’t even remember. When I grow up and i look into my tumblr and saw a post like,
I know for sure that I’m not going to know what the fuck I was talking about and wonder what the hell was wrong with me at the time. It’s a shame that I can’t. With all the people who are just waiting for me to make a slip up just make it impossible to truly blog about how I feel and each day that passes by. But I don’t want that. I want it to be where I can just be me. If someone pisses the fuck out of me or did something wrong/bad/hurtful towards me, I wanna be able to write this bitch’s name down so I can look back and be like, "Oh Yeah, I remember this person. It’s good that I’ve at some point forgiven them but didn’t forget this bastard’s name." But that’s just an example. If only, but I just don’t have that kind of privacy.
U-Kiss we’re on fire U-Kiss we’re on fire U-Kiss we’re on fire U-Kiss we’re on fire
Fire today I’m on fire today oh~~~ Fire today I’m on fire today oh~~~
I was instantly happy with you, that moment, was I dreaming? It’s constantly difficult* always for me every time Through all the greatly tough times you were the one there by my side, thank you you’re beautiful
Take it slow, let’s get low… gently to me, come to me Take it slow, let’s make love… come into my arms this night
Fire today I’m on fire today oh~~~ (I want you girl tonight) Fire today I’m on fire today oh~~~
U-Kiss we’re on fire U-Kiss we’re on fire U-Kiss we’re on fire Oh yeah
you ask me what’s the deal, been acting strange. You think you can ask me that now? Don’t think I’m acting cold because you were the one who turned your back. All this trying never adds up. You can do the math because I already know it doesn’t add up. You wonder why I’m not the person I was when we met, but you know what? You made me this way. You took my trust and turned it into sand, and now you’re asking what’s the deal? You made me this way.
After the scratching noises that were driving me to insanity, I began to hear whispers and I was freaking out. But then I soon realized that it was just my shows playing by itself on youtube because my firefox crashed from overuse of tabs and when I opened it, it began to play. Plus, my earphones were plugged into my speakers but I didn’t have them in my ear and thus, created the scratching noise and the whispers. HAHAHA.
They were amazing. I thought we’d never talk again. Damn, it made me think about how much I’ve missed you. Even though things changed, seeing you talk to me made me smile, even if you only talked to me because you needed something. No wonder you were talking differently from before. Hmm.
“Girl, I wrote this letter to let you know forever, I keep you in my heart when I’m leaving you boo. Girl, I wrote this letter and it ain’t getting better. That is why I can’t be with you. P.S. I still love you”
But from there, you can only go up. Maybe things will never be okay, but it gets better. The pain still lingers, but you know, somethings heal over time. Maybe you’ll never look at someone the same way you looked at him, but that’s okay. No one said you had to find someone who could replace him. It’s okay not to be okay. We’re all trying to put up an act and pretend we’re strong. It’s okay to cry. It doesn’t mean we’re weak.
But tears don’t mean you’re losing; everybody’s bruising.
Eventually, you hit rock bottom. But that’s okay. After all, we’re only human.
I keep saying to everyone, "yeah I’m over him, I’ve moved on." But I’m really not. Maybe I did move on, but I just can’t forget. I can’t look at anyone else the same way I looked at you. I can’t take interest in anyone anymore. Sure, I’ll say I’m into some new guy, but it doesn’t feel the same. I wish I was clearer on my feelings back then. I was too scared to get hurt & without even realizing it, I hurt you. I wonder if you wish you never met me, if you wished you’d never fell for me. I wanna stop this feeling inside of me. It like, I don’t want to forget our memories, but it’s these memories that keep me from walking forward. I feel like I have so much to say, so much feelings that I can’t get out. I don’t have the words to explain how I feel though.
I hate when I study all this shitload of vocab & half the shit of them aren’t even in the exam. Instead, they ask me a definition of a word that was completely of out nowhere and I’m just sitting there like, “When the fuck was I ever supposed to know what this word means?”
You’re really selfish, you know that? I feel like a fool for not being able to forget when you already let go. But even when I know there’s no room for me, I still want to stay by your side silently, because that’s all I probably can do.
okay so, I see a lot of posts about facebook closing down on my dashboard.
Everyone’s freaking out LOL. Life isn’t over and it’s not even true. Weeklyworldnews is unreliable. I mean come on, they made a headline how michael Jackson wasn’t gone and was living on the moon. There’s also a headline where Prince William had an affair with Snooki and that Justin Bieber was cloned.
When shit goes down, I'd like to see who'll stick around.
I’d like to know the people I can trust and the people who’ll just leave me in the dust. I’m tired of being around people who are too blind in their own world to see what’s happening in mine. Is it a little too selfish of me to want the people I care about to care about me?