I haven’t felt the panic or sadness yet.
I haven’t felt the panic or sadness yet.
I waste hours thinking about things that can never come to a decision for me. How am I suppose to know what I want? What if both things are some up equal? If I flip a coin, I won’t know what to hope for. If I do hope for something, I’ll be too afraid to let go of the other thing. I just don’t know when to give up. Do I give up when I’ve reached my limits or do I give up when I’m already over them?
When will my cousin and Aunt leave?
SERIOUSLY. I want to go get some food, but it’s way too fricken awkward to step out there without my cousin staring and my aunt criticizing about how i’ll get fat if I eat this late.
I just want food ):
I wish I went to sleep earlier. Tomorrow is gonna be one long day. ): <
This year has been amazing and hard. We met people who we never knew would become so important to us. We dealt with hardship and decision that we never wanted to make, and in the end, we’ve all become someone stronger and wiser. Somethings have become clearer as the year progressed and somethings are just confusing as fuck. But without those, we wouldn’t have made it to who we all are today. I hope everyone has a lovely Christmas & a happy new year! :)
I’m just not as excited this year as last year.
You know what sucks? Falling for someone you know isn’t right for you. But you do anyways, because you somehow think they’ll turn out different. & Obviously, they don’t.
I haven’t on tumblr for 2 days! TWO. And i’ve been scrolling for about almost an hour now ;-;I have a new tab just for scrolling and everything. OMS, THIS IS GUNNA TAKE FOREVERR ):
I just watched it.
What a let down. LOL No offense to anyone who enjoyed it. They couldn’t even say some of the names right. Aang became “ong” Avatar became “uhvatar” and etc. The character choices were kinda a let down for me too, some of the acting was not that good. I liked the effects though :)
I just walked outside to see the Lunar eclipse.
Wasn’t as exciting as I thought it would be LOOOL
I wish i had a telescope xD Or binoculars ~
The moon looked orange-y redish and looked more round than usual LOL!
Sleep time ^ ^
Why in the world would you tell a person who’s already pissed off to, “calm down” ? I guarantee you that you’ll get an even more pissed off person after you say that. Even if you do tell them to “calm down”, you don’t say it like this:
“Gosh! Calm down!”
Are you asking me to punch you in the fcking head?
No. Just no.
Because you’re going to hold her hand a little tighter and pull her a little closer than you did with me. You’re going to smile a little brighter and laugh probably a lot more. You’ll be way more jealous of potential guys that will take her away from you. & you’re going to do all these things because you know I’m going to see it eventually & you’re going to try to make me see what I lost. But as the girl who used to be yours, I’m not going to let it phase me. Because I let go of a guy who made me cry unbelievable tears & hurt me the way I never wanted to be hurt.
that person who will meet me on weird circumstances and will become my best friend unconditionally. That person who’ll waste space in my head and occupy my thoughts when I should be doing homework. That person who I’ll fall for slowly and begin to think about how I feel and if this is actually what I want. You know that kind of person? The person who you’ll confess to and hopefully, they’ll feel the same way. The first couple months are sweet and you can’t wait to show that person off to the world and make sure that every single person knows that that person is yours and they should back off. & then we’ll reach the tough bumps and have a fight, but nonetheless, we’ll still love each other and work it out. That person who I’ll hurt unknowingly but will continue to strive for me anyways. We’ll have troubles saying those three words to each other because we want to make sure we mean it and we want the timing to be perfect. Do you have a person like that? The person who you’ll be able to say, “I love you” to and know that you’re committing the perfect crime with them.
I just watched despicable me and toy story 3 today.
GUESS WHAT I SEE ~~~~?
Get over him. He’s not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yeah you loved him, I know that. And I know you just can’t see yourself with anyone other than him, I get that. I’ve been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah you’re going to see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself, because straight up; it’s gonna hurt. He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows you’re watching. He knows it’s killing you; and that’s why he will do it. Don’t let him get to you because that, well that’s exactly what he wants. Don’t give him what he wants. He doesn’t even deserve it. So what if he doesn’t talk to you? Do you honestly wanna be friends with an asshole like him anyway? Thing is, I know you still do. But give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, and really. Do you want to hear that? No. So screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry, trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who’s not him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realize how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you; the girl of his dreams. He will realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you, when he decided he just did not love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry. So don’t go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know you’ll never get. Or that IM you know he will never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. He likes to pretend he doesn’t see you online, and he does it out of spite just because he knows it’s killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways, he is gonna look past you, but you need to know he only does that because he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. I’m not gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It will hurt a lot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. It’s all going to hurt. Knowing you’re not the girl that’s making him smile. Knowing you’re not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knowing you’re not the face on his wallpaper. Knowing you won’t be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there’s not going to be anymore late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what? Today, tomorrow, next week, or maybe months from now; your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone hoping it’s him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. But trust me; he’s got too much pride. Even if he wanted to get back together with you, he wouldn’t tell you. You’re soon going to realize he doesn’t care about you anymore and he won’t be the first person you think of calling when you’re upset. He won’t be the one to put that smile back on your face. And yeah it’s going to hurt; its going to hurt a lot. But you know what you’re going to do? You’re going to hold your head up. You’re going to show him you’re better off without him and you don’t need him in your life. You’re going to prove to him that he made the biggest mistake of his life by letting you go and that you never really needed him anyway.
That I have no current love life. LOOL I actually don’t mind it either. I know that relationships require time and attention. I have none of those to give or sacrifice. I’m really busy with school lately and making time for family and friends. My attention is something that’s really hard to give. It mostly goes to tumblr, so my boyfriend would probably get frustrated with me. Most of the time I’m really quiet too and don’t really feel like talking. I’m usually focused on other things and honestly, I just don’t have the time or the courage to date currently. Siiiiiiighhh, i just don’t know anymore.
Yanno what i’m saying?
Now I must start my hwrk </3
anyone up for helping me with my math? LOL
Starring Ashley Tisdale.
I really loved it. It was the typical loser girl trying to climb her way up. Crushing on a hottest boy in highschool & of course, the popular bitch who tries to ruin everything for the main character.. But it really made me think.
If I want something to happen, I have to do something about it. I can’t just sit here and wish for a miracle. I have to work hard for it.
& I always complain about my family. How I always want to leave as soon as possible. But If i just stopped and thought about it for a moment, do I really want to leave? No, I don’t want to be detachable.
I gotta stop trying to fast forward everything and just take things as they go.
I know it seems like I don’t care anymore. I mean, what reason would I have to? Technically we have no connection with each other anymore, but I just keep holding on. I hope you’re all right & I hope you somehow always know that even if things when down and we stopped our relationship, I still care. Even if you don’t need me in your life, I still care. Just wanted you let you know that things will be better. `cause when it rains, it pours. But it can’t rain forever. :)
kay guys, so like this chick messaged me saying that Vanny won’t be able to talk to me anymore because she’s going to try to balance out Vanny’s k-pop music and english music because she is leaning towards k-pop more. So if I want to talk to Vanny, I have to talk to her on twitter and I can’t talk about k-pop with her.
Your logic is insane and I will continue to talk to Vanny & I will talk about k-pop with her. So you can suck it.
I DO NOT GET MY MATH.
I seriously hate it when people don’t pay attention in class. Then they come to me after and be like, “I don’t get it. How do you do it?” WTF. YOUR FAULT. WHY DIDN’T YOU PAY ATTENTION OR ASK THE TEACHER. OMFG I NEEDA DO MY OWN HWRK, BUT NO. I’M STUCK HERE TUTORING YOUR STUPID ASS.
& it’s not a one time thing, BUT EVERY TIME WE HAVE HWRK. EVERY SINGLE TIME. THAT’S ALMOST LIKE, EVERY DAY.
ohmyshit, i’m just not in the mood today. Getting pissed so easily.
I usually don’t mind helping other people, but come on, pull your shit together please.
Dang it, I wasn’t productive today at all.
Like honestly, I woke up super sore from hardcore gym yesterday and had hardcore basketball today. I came home and ate a bowl of pho and just knocked out on my couch while watching family guy. LOL.
Didn’t even touch my homework. I don’t even know if i have hwrk due tmr.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better ^ ^
I hate it how you just talk to me when you need something.
Do you think I’m going to be around forever? Do you think that I’ll always fall for your stupid traps? I’m not a backup plan you can come to whenever you’re lonely. It’s either we talk genuinely or we don’t talk at all.
Most of it was just choosing songs too HAHAH :)
I feel like more and more people are becoming blind.
Best Friends are now enemies. Promises are always broken. Couples are breaking up. There’s always shouting going on. A circle of friends are talking shit about each other. People are lying behind one’s back. Friendships are being broken over a boy. Innocent people are being played. The people who used to be best friends now walk past each other without even being able to look in each other’s eyes. Happy moments are rare, and guess what?
This is becoming frequent. Where has the world gone to?
I could be sleeping right now, but nooooo, I decided to give a fck about school & hwrk.
This will be worth it in the end….This will be worth it in the end….this will be worth it in the end….
Literary Response of To Kill a Mockingbird Chapter 22-31
Management & Marketing
Can I do this? I fucking hope so.
You’re guilty until proven innocent.
Fucking hate math.